Mia is my one and only plan

Mia is my plan

Rest your head my dear
Just don’t look in the mirror
Not until satisfaction is guaranteed
Not until you have what you need
Nothing more than bones and skin
You’ll become thinner than thin
They don’t understand
It’s not a want it’s a demand
She sees obesity beyond belief
bulimia- what a relief
Her smiles are fake
What’s it gonna take
The purging, the pale, and the bones
Her results will be shown
Her body so ragged and rough
She didn’t purge enough
She never really does
Wishes it could be like it was
Before they all knew
That the rumors were true
“She’s starving, she’s lying”
“She’s purging, she’s dying”
They make it worse than it seems
She only wants to live out her dreams
And be all that she can
bulimia as her past, present, and future plan.

My Fading Obsession

Letter To Mia...My fading Obsession

You tell me pretty things.
You tell me with your help I can be better.
I am lost
I need a friend.
I want to be better.
You pick me up, above all else.
You dangle me from a string.
You help me fly, you give me hope.
I pull away
You push me back down.
I'm on my knees for you.
Those pretty things scratch at me.
Your promises do not exist.
You show me things, which I cannot see.
You lure me back in.
I break free
Freedom doesn't last
I'm back on my knees for you.
Yesterday, today, tomorrow. forever.
Love you, hate you, need you.
You convince me to stay with you.
You lie to me.
Your lies are my truth
on my knees I remain for you